I need money and purpose

I have a job, but I'm living in the most expensive city in my country.

So I need a better job or a side hustle. Just simple it is that.

And here is where the trouble begins. On one hand, I think that I hate my job, and I don't know what other career I should be looking for, or what I could be looking for. I'm not so young and not so intelligent either, so my chances of finding something else are almost non-existent.

So my first choice is to create a side hustle. I don't have any particular experience or skill either. I have a few hobbies, and the only money I could get from that is to do something live (YouTube or Twitch). Still, I'm not into that, I don't like this kind of exposure, and sincerely, I don't think that turning a passion into a job serves any purpose other than making you lose a passion.

The last thing that I want to share here is the fact that I don't have any sense of purpose.
I read a lot of books and blog posts on this topic. I even saw tons and tons of videos about that, but I have yet to hear anything speak to me.
But there's one thing I've learned. No book, video, or speech can give you this (at most they inspire you to move a little, but those who do are very few), and frankly, even action itself is "overrated".

I want to be clear, I'm not waiting for "the call", I'm searching and often trying new things too, but nothing sticks.


But I still have hope for the future.


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