We watch as others live

It's not the first time that you will hear these words, as a matter of fact, it's not something too much original to say.

I have to admit that during the past months, I have watched too many videos on YouTube, and tons of hours of streaming on Twitch.
My work situation was not so good (not that it is any better now), I invested money in formal education, and it was totally useless, I even broke up with my girlfriend at the time, and even physically it was not so good.

I don't want to play the victim card here, but just underline what was my mental state at the time, so you can imagine why I looked for something to distract myself, and we built one of the most powerful things in this field aka internet.

It was entertaining... sure!

It helped to distract me from my worries... yeap!

It helped, and it was useful, so there is a chance that you could not understand why I started this post, or maybe you had a different expectation for its continuation, or even you are waiting for "the closure", any form of critique or suggestion to avoid this trap again. But to be honest, this is not the case.

The fact is simple, now I feel again the energy to do something, and when you have it, and hopefully you can agree on this, you don't want to watch people doing something, because every second you will say to you something like "why I'm sitting here watching, "I want to do something", or maybe, "I want to do that".

So regardless of what you had thought at the beginning of this post, it's not another rant on the internet about the internet and how it's ruining our lives, but it's just a post to say that I'm starting to feel better.

Is there something that changed during these past months? Nope, maybe only me.

Seeeeee ya!!!

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